In an hour we will depart for the boulders.
I will suck. That is the mantra replaying in my mind.
Just get rid of the expectations. That's the problem... there are always expectations. Even the idea to get rid of expectation is an expectation. And so this is the seed of suffering. Expectation.
The trick then is to set an expectation that one can control.
The expectation to try for a number of times. The expectation to hike a certain distance, to get on x number of routes.
This morning the challenge is I don't even know what expectations are reasonable.
Here is where the practice begins.
Can I stay comfortable with not knowing no matter the outcome? Can I believe that whatever happens is happening FOR me?
I guess we will see. How about you?